Its high time ki I should start accept the reality of being lonely. I feel like handicap without any of you beside me; talking to me, biking with me, eating out at airport, boozing in the wing or at toto's or anywhere else, freaking out with you at beach, playing pool, you taking care of me at home, me dropping you at school or to take you out for gupchup; damn it; it looks to me as if these are haunting me, because they make me cry. Probably I am taking strides with these moments as my crutches.
Never been alone
Never missed anyone, as I was always with them
Never spent weekends sitting in a room
Never been so quite
Never cried for anyone
Never was scared of loneliness
Have I lost that fun element within me, that smile which I always had, that nbd when I am in pressure, that carelessness with which I lived my whole life, that gandagi in my room which could beat many. Nothing seems to impress me now, no feelings, getting selfish gradually, no generosity, I react in same manner at every situation, nothing seems to put me in pressure.
Its not that I am not smiling, its not that I am in depression, its not that I am not happy; the thing is: Feeling is missing element in all my activity apart from my work; I am atleast enjoing one thing, which is my lifeline for survival.
I 've started concentrating on lyrics, I look people with not my view but as they want to be looked as; that's not the way I want to be, I confront with all miseries, I can't stand any ill-treatment for being asian. Where is my social life?
repeatedly to charm me.
Never been alone
Never missed anyone, as I was always with them
Never spent weekends sitting in a room
Never been so quite
Never cried for anyone
Never was scared of loneliness
Have I lost that fun element within me, that smile which I always had, that nbd when I am in pressure, that carelessness with which I lived my whole life, that gandagi in my room which could beat many. Nothing seems to impress me now, no feelings, getting selfish gradually, no generosity, I react in same manner at every situation, nothing seems to put me in pressure.
Its not that I am not smiling, its not that I am in depression, its not that I am not happy; the thing is: Feeling is missing element in all my activity apart from my work; I am atleast enjoing one thing, which is my lifeline for survival.
I 've started concentrating on lyrics, I look people with not my view but as they want to be looked as; that's not the way I want to be, I confront with all miseries, I can't stand any ill-treatment for being asian. Where is my social life?
How does it feel
How does it feel
To be without a home
Like a complete unknown
Like a rolling stone?
How does it feel
To be without a home
Like a complete unknown
Like a rolling stone?
How does it feel
How does it feel
To be on your own
With no direction home
Like a complete unknown
Like a rolling stone?
- Bob Dylan
I prefer to interpret in otherway as I've been trying to accept my as it comes but now 'am tired of pretentions.
repeatedly to charm me.
